Easy to start...Hard to end~

Haih..i jz hope all this is jz a dream..bt its not..easy to stary hard to end..haih..what else can i do except putting a fake smile on my face?? hmmmm~ nex year hw mian dui him?? thats still a problem..haih...next year pmr lagi..confirm is a stress up year 4 me...haih~ i look happy on the outside but inside i am dying~!~! i pretended nthing had happen b4..will it work?? will it increase the wounds n the pain in my heart?? haih....